I actually had a pretty good Christmas Eve and Day. We went out to my sister n law's acreage on Thursday. They have an outdoor skating area and lots of property to wander about. My niece came with us and Chief did too. We left Ruby at my parents just because it was too cold for her to be wandering about. Chief had a great time just romping about in the snow, he loved it. We skated and took walks in the deep snow and played some board games inside. We then had a Greek Dinner, (we aren't Greek but my sister n law wanted to do something different). I actually had a good time and didn't think about my sadness too much. Thankfully, DH's cousin who recently got married (in September) didn't announce a pregnancy or anything, I was pretty afraid of that...thank you God.
Christmas Day was spent at my parents house, with less than the usual people there. My brother wasn't able to come home from his job, which happens alot (he works on off shore oil rigs). And my nephew went to Toronto to visit his mother. But having my other two little nieces around made the evening fun. My one niece is six and the other one is one years old. We opened gifts and played some games. There was some drama with all the doggies that were there, my Dad was all freaked that Chief was going to attack his dog and Chief is the biggest wimp ever. Then my sister n law brought over her dog (a min pin) who totally went after Chief and Chief was so scared. They eventually were OK with each other, but my Dad was in a pissy mood all night.
Its weird to say but I'm actually missing my trips to the fertility clinic. I guess its easier when I actually get to sit in the same room with people going through the same things as me. When I'm at home I just feel by myself in this crazy struggle. I really am thankful for all the supportive comments I've received from you wonderful ladies reading my blog. It really means alot to me to get your support and help me realize I'm not so alone. Please know that I appreciate all your comments and it definitely helps me try to look on the brighter side of things.
It's been a long time! Part 2
13 years ago
I came to love the staff at my last fertility clinic. They understood the ups and downs which was a relief not to have to explain. I'm glad your holiday went well!
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear that you had a wonderful time during the holidays and that things were not as stressful as they could have been. I know the fear of the ever present question "okay, so when are they going to announce their pregnancy?"
ReplyDeleteLast year at this time I was a total wreck. My SIL was going to have a baby and I wanted to be the one with the news, how ever, that didn't work out. It was so hard and I even went through denial with her and her pregnancy. She lives several states away which is good and has allowed me the time I need to be able to accept all that was happening.
As of now, I have not gone to a fertility clinic. We are planning to start clomid as soon as I can get the rest of the weight off that I need to because of my diabetes. At that point, I am not sure when we will need to seek a fertility specialist.
My thoughts and prayers are with you always.
Hugs and blessings,
Stacey