Everly Grace welcomed to the world on July 12th (07-12) and weighting 7 lbs 12 oz. We are so blessed and happy. We thought this day would never come. Infertility is a nightmare experience for everyone, so coming to this point is unbelievable. All I can say is keep hoping and trying even when you feel defeated. And I wish everyone so much love and encouragement on their tough journeys which is so different for every single person.
I am in the midst of Week 38 and now I know what all those preggers were complaining about before -- I feel like an overstuffed turkey. And by no means is my belly as big as I have seen on some women, but man this is getting uncomfortable. At my last appt. the Dr. said there was no progress towards labor, so I guess this little gal likes it in there. I have somewhat lost my appetite as well and really have been losing weight rather than gaining in these last weeks.
Baby prep is going pretty well, her room is almost done. Just waiting for the dresser and chair to arrive. We still haven't purchased a crib mattress yet, but she won't be sleeping in it for awhile. We have the playpen with bassinet set up in our room. I have experienced some of those Braxton Hicks contractions, which aren`t very pleasant, but I`m sure nothing compared to the real thing.
Really hard to believe the big day is almost here! Over three years in the making.
Almost at 34 weeks and can hardly believe it! Can't wait to meet my baby girl. Started our prenatal classes and trying not to get freaked out about the whole birthing process. Every woman experiences a different birth so I can't get too caught up in what has happened with others. Thought at first I would do it all naturally, but I think I will remain open to an epidural. My DH is convinced I will so be getting an epidural, and he may be right. As long as she enters this world healthy and strong, that's all I care about. Would be nice if labor doesn't last too long though : )
Wow, its very challenging dealing with these "hormonal" emotions that are always at the surface. Last week I started prescription treatment for a yeast infection, and a couple days into it I had some spotting. Of course I freaked just thinking something was wrong...crying and the whole bit. I think it was just because I was at the precipice of 24 weeks, which is a milestone I was desperate to cross without any hiccup. I called the Health Link and was hoping the nurse would tell me the spotting was connected to the medication or the yeast infection to put my mind at ease. Well, she didn't say that but told me to go see the doctor if it continued more than 2 days. It stopped after a couple days and I hadn't taken the medication for one because I didn't want it to start again. So, I resumed the medication because the nurse said that would be wise to not stop treating the infection. And three days later some more spotting. So, yesterday and today I have been on major underwear watch. Today it is fading and now I am wondering if it is related to the medication or to my Aquafit class. My class is on Thursday nights and both times the spotting started a day after the class. I am just going to take it easy as much as I can for the next few days.
Anyways, trying to keep my emotions in check and not freak about everything. It is hard, especially when this is so precious to me and took so long to achieve. I want everything to go just perfect and don't need any emotional roller coaster rides...I had enough of that for three years. Just want Baby Girl to keep growing strong and healthy and wait for summer.
Naming someone is an overwhelming task. First you have to think that you will be saying this name countless times for the rest of your life. And secondly you hope your child likes their name and it doesn't result in any unwanted teasing/taunting etc. I have a list of names of course but one of them just seems to be speaking to me. It is not a very common name which is what I like but I don't want my daughter to have such an unusual name that it becomes annoying for her.
The name I like (and have convinced my DH to like) is EVERLY. Now when I look up this name in the various baby name books and websites it says it is a boys name. To me it isn't. I would never name a boy, Everly. And I immediately thought the nickname would be EVIE, which I really like as well. Now I've basically told DH that naming is up to me because he insists this is going to be our only baby.... we'll see. He likes GRACE, which will probably end up being the middle name.
Now the other thing with this name is the meaning. In some places where I look it up it says the meaning is "From Ever's Meadow", which I think is beautiful. But in other places it says "From Boar's Meadow" which is not so appealing. But just wondering if people pick names more on how they sound, then what they mean? Anyways, I'm still looking at other names on my list but have starting calling my belly Everly. I didn't want to share it with too many people, but a few have gotten it out of me and so far the feedback has been positive.
So, we will see if she is an EVERLY in 3.5 months. I went for another ultrasound yesterday to check on her heart. We are participating in a study where they monitor her heart for any abnormalities because they can sometimes occur in IVF babies. Yesterday was the last ultrasound and they told me her heart looked pretty perfect, so I was sooo happy! Of course they said (to cover their butts) that they can't see everything on an ultrasound like minor defects but overall they were happy with the results.
My EVERLY has a good heart (literally and figuratively I hope), what more could a mommy ask for : )
Yes I found out. It's a girl! I was surprised but my DH wasn't, he said he knew. I didn't totally think it was a boy but wasn't convinced either way I guess. My anatomy ultrasound went great and I am happy to say without trepidation that I am doing great at the halfway mark. When you are an IF survivor you are always waiting for the the other shoe to drop. But this ultrasound eased my worries. I still don't think I am feeling her move too much but I know she is alive and kicking in there. It was so cool, because I wasn't expecting a 3D image. I didn't know our doctor's office had it. So we got to take home some 3D images and 4D video. I want to go for another 3D ultrasound on our own when she is bigger and so that my stepdaughter can come and see. Now I can relax on our Caribbean cruise next week, super excited. First have to get tons of homework done which is stressing me a bit, but can't complain cause I'll be in paradise in a week. Halfway there and still can't believe it. I'm sure now it will all rush by. Haven't even started shopping yet....yikes!
Maybe worry beads will help me stop worrying. The ultimate fear has come true....I've turned into my mother The Worry Wart of all worry warts. So, I am sailing into 2nd trimester feeling better than ever. No nausea, no hip pains, no food aversions (mostly) but I can't stop worrying. Now that I feel pretty normal I think there must be something wrong. Especially since I am not quite sure if I have felt the baby yet.
I am almost 18 weeks and while I have felt some little lower abdomen muscle twinges, I don't know if that is the baby or not. It would be so comforting to feel it more so I actually feel pregnant. My belly has grown, so that is a definite sign. Weird how I can't accept the fact that feeling normal is normal.
I am counting down the days till our big ultrasound on Feb 10th. We are definitely finding out what we are having. And I want to see that baby move again, if only on a screen so I don't have to worry about it so much. Lots of people think I am having a girl even DH, but I don't really have a sense either way right now.
We are going on a Caribbean cruise in 3 weeks and I can't wait to get away from all this snow and cold. It going to be hard not to gain some extra pounds on that boat, the all you can eat shrimp and lobster night....I've been dreaming of it for months.
You feel like it is never going to end. First trimester yuckiness. Well, I still don't believe it but I'm starting to feel normal again; most of the time anyway. Last night I pushed my luck and stayed up too late, and ending up vomiting before I went to bed. Oh well, better vomit once a week,than once a day.
My bump is starting to show and the pants are getting tighter. Good thing I saved some of my fat pants from a few years ago. I also bought a few pairs of maternity pants but they still feel too big and fall down after about an hour of wearing them. Another good thing is that the excessive hunger I was feeling for three months has subsided. My last doctor's visit on Thursday he told me I gained 7 pounds since last month, yikes! Well, its was Christmas too and I was soooo hungry. My visit was short and sweet. He just measured my belly, we listened to the heartbeat and he asked me some questions. I go back on Feb 10 for anatomy ultrasound and next appointment. Counting down the days till I get to see my little one again. I told my doctor I do want to find out the sex. My philosophy is I've waited three years for this to happen, I don't want to wait for any more surprises. Hopefully, little one cooperates in the ultrasound. (probably the people who want to know so bad don't get to)
Otherwise, everything is going fine. I still have my worries, but that is probably true of all preggos. I started my pre-natal aquafit class where everybody is totally showing big time. I felt like I had washboard abs compared to everyone else. I was the one who was the fewest weeks pregnant. Felt good to do some exercise again though, it has been awhile. I was going to join a yoga class as well but didn't want to overwhelm myself. I have a pre-natal yoga DVD that I haven't even looked at. Classes are always better for me to get my butt in gear.
I'm 38 and DH is 41. We got married in September 07. Being naive in the ways of the fertility gods, I assumed getting pregnant would be no big deal. And here we are two years later and alot more educated on infertility and why my old eggs aren't cooperating. Took me 35 years to find my soul mate, don't know how long it will take to create a soul in progress.
Oct 07 - Went off BC Oct 07 to Nov 08 - BBT, OPK Feb 08 - Told by GP had to wait one year (of TTC) before could be referred to RE Sept 08 - Asked to be referred to RE, found out waitlist is close to one year (this is how Canada works) Oct 08 - Went to see RE in California on visit to relatives, and had HSG and ultrasound done,both OK Oct 08 - DH had SA done and was OK (or so I thought) Dec 08 - Clomid Challenge Test OK, Sperm morphology 8% (ideal should be 14%) Feb 09 - Did one cycle of Clomid Jul 09 - 1st Appointment with RE at local Fertility Clinic, more bloodwork, another SA and ultrasound Sept 09 - had follow-up appointment Sept 09 - First IUI attempt cancelled due to cyst in ovary Oct 09 - 1st round of IUI failed
Nov 09 - 2nd round of IUI failed
Jan 10 - 3rd round of IUI failed
June 10 - IVF #1 - 2 embryos -BFN Oct 10 - FET #1 - 3 embryos - BFP
Oct 10 - BFP!!!! Jul 5/11 - Expected Due Date
Patience is the art of hoping. -Marquis De Vauvenargues
TTC - Trying to Concieve
IF - Infertility
AF - Aunt Flo (My Period)
HPT - Home Pregnancy Test
CD - Cycle Day
DH - Dear Husband HSG - Hysterosalpingogram RE - Reproductive Endocrinologist SA - Sperm Analysis BBT - Basal Body Temperature OPK - Ovulation Predictor Kit DPO - Days Past Ovulation IUI - Intra-Uterine Insemination B U/S - Baseline Ultrasound TCM - Traditional Chinese Medicine U/S - Ultrasound LPD - Luteal Phase Defect IVF - InVitro Fertilization ET - Embryo Transfer 2WW - Two Week Wait BFN - Big Fat Negative FET - Frozen Embryo Transfer